19.

She is 19 today. I miss the little days SO much. These 19 years have been so full of "goosebumps" with her for many reasons and I call them goose bumps because her nickname since the day she came home from the hospital has been Goose. Corbin named her that. I put her in his arms to hold and he looked at her and said, "She's so little, like a tiny little goose" and from then on...she was Goose. She has provided us with many goosebump moments over time some for instance, eating bacon grease straight from the pan, eating a cock roach, eating dog poop, eat butter crisco, drinking toilet water while using her little church shoe as a cup, do you see a pattern here? She was so little but around 9-10 she was forced to grow up faster than usual because Nico and I kind of lost our way during all of the things that we were going thru with Alyssa. Brenna became the "big sister" and was left alot in charge of Dominic and Lucas Although she loved being big sister and was very good at mothering I think it wasn't fair to her, looking back now, I know that it wasn't fair to her. Her little life felt the effects of her sisters, and then her parents as well. She should have been "little sister" for longer, alot longer. Shes got one heck of a strong will this is for sure, and when she wants something, or wants something to happen, she will make sure that it does. Thru all of this, over the years, shes grown into a beautiful big sister to Dominic and Lucas. She will forever be little sister to Alyssa and Corbin and to Nico and I, she will always be the little tiny Goose who colored her face with a green marker while she was supposed to be sleeping. She's ours and although we may have had some major epic fails as parents, we haven't always done things the right way and haven't always set the best example, we will still and forever be a family that sticks together.

 

all grown up.

 

Mumford and Sons

So! Those who read this blog or even slightly know me know that I love Mumford and Sons and knows that Brenna and I went to see them this past Saturday! Amazing!! I didn't take a ton of pictures of the day because we were too busy being super cool at the Hollywood Bowl hearing super great music but here are a few

So that was driving into LA. Buildings buildings and more buildings! It's cool and all however I wouldn't want to live there, {sorry to all of you LA dwellers, the big city just isn't for me}

 

LET US IN!

 

They really were awesome and we met some very cool people who were sitting around us. I forgot that the Hollywood Bowl is an outdoor venue and Brenna only had on a tank top and a flannel shirt...we were FREEZING but it was so worth it, we froze right along with everyone else, once Mumford and Sons started up, we stood up and stood the entire 2 hours! I didnt feel my toes for over two hours but so what, who cares? They sang so much, and Brenna was able to yell to Marcus Mumford to tell him that she named her cats after him...now whether he heard her or not, who knows, but she got to tell him and that's all that mattered to her :) She kinda sorta has a crush on the fella. I love that they have such a snazzy dressed fan-base, really I do. I didn't see one pair of saggy pants in the whole place! Hip Hip!! If you haven't listened to them yet...give their new album Babel some earttention. Get it? No but really....listen to them! I have video, but Ill spare you, only because I didn't get time to upload it, but they sang Lucas's favorite song and I told Lucas that I yelled from the crowd and asked them to sing Below My Feet for Lucas and so they did. (at least thats what I told Lucas) and he thinks its true and said, "Ohhh thats so cool" He wants a kick drum and I bet you he gets one! LOVE.

October weekend.

I did something that I haven't done practically since I got my iphone which has been ages..and that was to take my camera out of its bag and just set it on my desk and try using it on my own family and life. I was looking thru my Flickr account and forgot how often I used to take just every day pictures of my own family, I need to get back into that ritual, less iPhone, more real. I guess if I wanted to be even more "real" I would get a film camera, but hey, baby steps. Here is a tiny bit of my weekend, actually a very tiny bit.

 

This would be Corbin, he's very funny about me taking pictures of him and I tried sneaking some of him while he was in my room playing the guitar and he caught me so he did this. Yah. nice. Thankyou Corbin.

   

 me. looking a little not so joyous. maybe sometimes I dont want to look joyous?

 

but then its ok because shortly after that I felt very joyous laying next to my little Lukie.

some oldies.

cats.just because

A big cat post, just because. Why not? Doms cat and Brennas cat.

 

the kids are alright.

Its been ages since I took my "real" camera out with me for just personal reasons. Last week we went to the beach, it was hotter than hot and we only stayed for a short time, right towards the end Dominic and Brenna started giving me a show, so I took pictures. Goodbye summer. Hello cooler weather, whenever you decide to show up.