UFO

I realized tonight that I really don't keep up with my blog very well. I always feel like I'm so connected with everyone so well but I forget..not everyone has Instagram, which is where I hang out the most and keep people updated on things in our lives and how we are getting on. so here I am, and blogging from my iPad no less. Let's see how this goes. I got a very sweet email from someone today who lost her oldest daughter as well, however she was only given three years with her baby girl. I remember reading her blog long ago, when she first lost Ava, I even read her blog with Alyssa, and now here she and I are bonding over something like this, she is further along in her journey of learning how to just go on after losing a child, you know, it's just not easy and there aren't words. Even saying that sounds so cliché but it's true. This next week will be 6 months, on my birthday. I'd like that day to just pass on by. I miss her. So much. Brenns wrote a song recently to Alyssa, she recorded it tonight...I listened to it, and cried. Alot. I'm going to figure out how to post it on here so that you can hear it, but the lyrics that struck me the most were these, "this thunder in my life, makin my eyes rain" Looks like there are still storms ahead.